I feel like I just wasted a portion of my life. After my last post I went to bed; I think I fell asleep around 7:30ish, I'm not quite sure because I no longer have a clock. It's just after 5pm now and I've just gotten up. I feel like what I slept through could've been something big if only I was there to see it.

It's 6:45AM on a beautiful Saturday morning in July. There's dew on the grass, a light fog in the air - simply glorious. Now you're probably thinking that I'm totally high or something right now. And you're right - I am. Well, sort of. For some reaso lately, I haven't really seemed to need that much sleep. I can go on and on without sleep. And I know I'm tired, but when I try to sleep I just can't. Very strange. So last night, I slept at my best friend, Laura's house... well I guess I didn't really sleep... Anyway, she fell asleep around 1 ish [I think] and I just watched tv for the 4 or so hours. Around 5:30 I realized that I was greatly wasting my time; so, I got in my vehicle-of-use and drove home. Once home I got out the can of paint and began to paint the fence - I project that I have been dragging on for about two weeks now. With the back fence down and only a couple panels left of the side I decided to come in here. I'm sitting here typing now with my eyes closed thinking of how nice it would be to lye down on my bed and sleep, but then I realized that no matter how long I lye there I won't be able to sleep. Very strange.

So now, not only am I a stomach-shrinker, I also have the super-duper-inability-to-sleep-when-necessary disorder.

Well, now that I've been diagnosed as a stomach-shrinker and one who has the super-duper-inability-to-sleep-when-necessary disorder I will move on. PZ.

I saw this on a sight and when I started reading it I was thinking along the lines of "haha" but as it went on I started to think "dude"....

A Salute to Nature:
What if there was whale so large that an elephant could stand on its
tongue or what if there was rhinoceros that could out run a race horse?
The Blue Whale and the White Rhino are real creatures, but they may be
things of the past if we don't start paying more attention to the
natural world around us.

Lately I've almost been feeling like a waste of existence... or something like that. My mom keeps telling me to be careful on here and not reveal myself too much to anyone, but I don't think that's what I'm doing. I just write down whatever I'm thinking about or whatever I'm feeling and see if anyone feels or thinks the same. Although I'm young I find myself constantly looking for someone who understands me. I don't want a boyfriend who has similar interests, I want a boyfriend who understands my interests. Ask any of my friends and they'd say that I'm boy-crazy or "on-the-prowl"; but, I"d call it searching for meaning. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not searching for meaning in who someone else is, but someone to help me define who I am.

I don't really know if this makes sense to you, but I know rhat it makes sense to me. I'm not as complex as some would say. I'm just your regular, ol' Daniella.

they have it all but they act like they r so totured.
thief once again.

Chivalry is for womanizers.
Perfection is for people who have time to waste.
- As said by Anthony

bore·dom (bôrdm, br-)
n.
The condition of being bored; ennui.

I'm not denying your perception. I'm denying your reality. You're a canary with a heart condition. Hit a man over the head with a fish and he'll have a headache for a day. Teach a man to hit himself over the head with a fish and he'll have headaches for life. Je suis le roi du merd! I have enough money to last me the rest of my life, unless I buy something. I can resist everything except temptation. My minds on vacation so, therefore, I became a theif tonight.

those who fear death have regrets

"For a moment, nothing happened. Then, after a second or so, nothing continued to happen." - Douglas Adams

"Ordering a man to write a poem is like commanding a pregnant woman to give birth to a red-headed child." - Carl Sandburg (1878-1967)

"Ask a talented person how they do what they do and they can rarely explain it - because talent is typically unconscious." - Unknown

"Time is the substance I am made of. Time is a river that carries me away, but I am the river; it is a tiger that mangles me, but I am the tiger; it is a fire that consumes me, but I am the fire. The world, alas, is real; I, alas, am Borges." - Jorge Luis Borges

"Every man of genius is considerably helped by being dead." - Robert Lynd (1879-1949)

"All those who believe in telekinetics, raise my hand." - Kurt Vonnegut

"You become a writer because you need to become a writer - nothing else." - Grace Paley

"What is history but a fable agreed upon?" - Napoleon

"Never assume the obvious is true." - William Safire

"ACQUAINTANCE: a person whom we know well enough to borrow from, but not well enough to lend to." - Ambrose Bierce (1842-1914)

"We only confess our little faults to persuade people that we have no big ones." - Francois Duc de La Rochefoucauld (1613-1680)

"It is only in literature that coincidences seem unnatural." - Robert Lynd (1879-1949)

"Write without pay until somebody offers to pay." - Mark Twain

"You can't be careful on a skateboard, man." - Stephen King

"And then the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom." - Anais Nin

"The three-dimensional space in which we live can be completely described by its two-dimensional boundary. Thus, the third dimension is not independent of the other two, and the world is, in a sense, a hologram." -Leonard Susskind, of Stanford University, and Gerard 't Hooft, University of Utrecht

"That which has been believed by everyone, always and everywhere, has every chance of being false." Paul Valéry (1871-1945)

...And in your final hours...I will stand, ready to begin...

You better read this. You know who you are!! Catch up.

I realized that my last post could put me in a very awkward position. I'm not anorexic or bulemic or anything. I just want to get that across. I don't think I'm fat or need to lose weight. I'm perfectly happy with how I am. I just was thinking about those things last night so I wrote them down. I'm not going to say that I don't agree with what I wrote because I do. I'm just saying that you shouldn't be thinking what you're thinking.

Do you think it's possible to shrink the size of your stomazh? You know that way you don't eat that much and then you don't gain weight. Well, some people call it anorexic, I call it stomach-shrinking. To be the top, the best, and long-lasting you've got to what you've got to do. For me that means a lot. I'm not going to do it how everyone else does. Well, I will, I'll just change how it's said. Once my stomach has shrank. I'll no longer be starving myself, I'll just be eating the capacity that I can hold; even if it's the size of a birds average meal. I'm not anorexic, or bulemic nor will I ever be; I'm a stomach-shrinker.

so are you like an activist at heart but not action-wise?
know what you mean...
gotta change that...
but, how?

Please respond
I know you're there
I know you hate me
I don't know why
Please resond
I know you're there

One swollen leg.
One leg as small as a chickens.
I walk like I either have a stick up my ass
Or have a wooden leg.
Who would be so lucky as to take on my pain?
No one is such deserving,
Not even my worst of enemies...
Wait, I don't even know who that is...
If only I could figure it out.